Flakier than Pastry Crust

I've lost it. Completely. It's gone. Not so much my desire to blog, but my ability to come up with anything remotely interesting to discuss or write about. While I am aware of my surroundings, I'm not seeing the humor in them. Call it the blahs if you want, but I see it more as a total flake out.

Some possible topics have come to mind. Like the Christmas present to end all Christmas presents, which is still pending, so that will wait. There's Bradley, who has reached a point of absolute fucking annoyance with his regular visits to ask to shovel our driveway; like mister mrtl telling him no yesterday would change if he rang the bell today while Bug was napping. And Bug's goings on, although having her own blog means those posts are more appropriate there.

::tangent::
It's pneumonia. She hasn't had a temperature at all today, but there's action in one lung, so she's on antibiotics now. She slept wonderfully last night, and I was even able to trick her into going down for her nap a half an hour early today since I was going to have to wake her early to get to the clinic.
::end tangent::

There's the endless complaints about the idiots here with whom I'm forced to share the road. There's the most bizarre Christmas card I've ever received (although I'm hesitant to write about it since it was from a family member). There's the "Good Deed" motif I still haven't addressed (like using the Christmas present to end all presents as I intended makes it acceptable to continue to put it off). There's my blogging anniversary, which was sometime this week (to start reading them, not writing -- that's at the end of January).

I'm starting to feel like I'm on anti-depressents again. That apathetic outlook. The meh's if you will. Maybe it's from being stuck in the house with a sick toddler for so long.

But let's move on. Part of the idea behind Motif Monday was to give time to consider a topic before writing about it, and setting a deadline so I'd get it done. While I haven't addressed the last topic assigned, I'm still going to put one up for Monday. I thank Karla and her brilliance for reminding me to do this.

next week's topic: resolved

And with that, I must go and change a poopy diaper before I throw up from the smell.

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Update: Yes, please do be amused that I titled this "Flakier than Pastry Dough" when it should have been "Flakier than Pastry Crust." It only shows how flaky I am.

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Another Update: I don't want to diminish myself and the effort it took to scrape together the above post, so I'm not going to add a new post just yet. I just had to share this.

A few minutes ago, I had a slight panic attack. Sudden craving for Taco Bell. Oh, it was harsh. I'm thinking, "Mister mrtl isn't going to check his email before leaving work, he's in a meeting so I can't call him at the office, and his cell is in my car." In my panic I did consider for half a second the fact that Bug is in bed... which is when the phone rang.

My husband is so brilliant he felt my need. Not only that, but when I answered the phone with a disbelieving "Nuh UH!" he knew why.

Such a keeper, this man.

Comments

[kalki]

I go through the meh phase too. When I first started blogging, I couldn't imagine having stuff to blog about on a regular basis - but it turned out I saw the humor in just about everything. Now sometimes I think, "Have I lost my touch or is my life just much more boring now?" But it comes back. (And then leaves again. And then comes back. And then...okay, you get it.)

[Amy]

And yet, you still manage to put a decent post out there. So you still got it. It just gets weighed down by the flotsam and jetsam of life. Hang in there, honeybunch. Glad to hear Bug is on le mend.

[LadyBug]

Now see, I can still find the humor in stuff (sometimes), and I've begun composing dozens of blog entries in my head; but I never can seem to summon the motivation to actually get them written.

I hope your meh's or blah's or whatever they are go away soon. I hope mine do, too.

HUGS to you, mrtl.

P.S. I'm DYING to hear the story about the most bizarre Christmas card ever. It sounds SO bloggable. I do understand your hesitation, though.

[Susie]

You are a BRILLIANT blogger. I love the way you think, and write, and the topics you write about. Your meh is probably weather, hormones, just normal blogger's ebb and flow. Of course we want to hear about the, um, unusual Christmas card. And what the heck is that gift?!!!

I'm sorry Miss Thang has the p-word. The a'biotics should knock it out. She'll probably be droopy for a while.

I hope you don't feel pressured to "produce," here; you've got enough on your plate. Plus, you're already more prolific than 99% of bloggers. We'll deal if you don't post quite as much.

[mrtl]

kalki - This is the longest the blogging blahs have stuck around for me. Usually I can pull something out of my ass to write about. The inspiration's just not there. At least I'm caught up on all my regular reads!
Thanks Amy! I'm so used to being able to write about the stupid stuff, too, seeing something funny in it (at least to me). It makes me feel stagnant not to. I'll get over it.
LadyBug - I must be trying too hard. Maybe if I let go, it'll come back. We'll see.
Susie - You're too sweet. The only pressure I feel is from myself, especially when I assign myself something and don't follow through. This too shall pass.

[Kristine]

*tackle hug*

I hear ya. I have nothing. I thought about talking about my boobs because I am SO not interesting anymore.

[mrtl]

Kristine - But see, you have your killer camera skilz to fall back on; if you don't write, no one's complaining because we're stunned.

Me? I've considered writing about stuff I've held off on so far due to limits on my personal sensibilities. The TMI factor may be too much. Stay tuned!

[Bente]

He felt your craving? Wow. That's pretty cool.

Sorry about the meh's. I'm sure you'll get past them soon.

[mrtl]

Bente - Indeed on all counts!

[william]

The fact that your husband felt your craving is pretty impressive.

As far as blogging goes I enjoy your "nothing to write about" posts as much as the "story time with Mrtl" posts as well as all the tangents.

[CircusKelli]

Perhaps you need some pie...?

Couldn't hurt. Might help. ;)

[jana]

The 'meh's are much too early, they should be held off until at least late January. Forge on!

Sorry to hear about Bug, hope she is feeling better.

Anything you write will be better that my best post, so keep writing!!!!

[pea]

Wow! Taco Bell brainwaves are powerful!

I'm sorry you're feeling so meh, though I think you're still superduper awesome AND because you told us all about Bug's love of her tent-for-a-bed, I purchased one for my niece (My Little Pony) and it was declared The Best Present Ever. Thanks!

I hope your little Bug is on the mend.

[Hänni]

Forget about the blogging blues, that damn title alone is prolific. Correlating pie with mental distress - that's pure poetry.

(And if you worry that you've written something that's too much TMI, just hop over the haus. I'm routinely posting things that make friends, family, whoever go "that's gross!"

[Nina]

Yes, I would truly say you need to keep that man. You have a full plate . . . yet can put together a post. Be gentle with yourself mrtl, give yourself a hug from me.

[Andrea]

No such thing as TMI for me (unless it's from my family). I can deal with other people's TMI! Sometimes I struggle with how much is TMI to share too. I think if I'm comfortable sharing it, why can't other people be comfortable reading it? ;)

About the "meh's"...I don't think it's too early. Normally I would think late January is the time, but remember, you're in ALASKA. LESS DAYLIGHT, for much longer already. It makes complete sense. I was about to suggest going back on the antidepressants might be worth considering, and then I remembered...oops, you're pregnant. Maybe invest in one of those special light thingies?

Taco Bell was my biggest craving with both of my full pregnancies. I understand the need. Glad K pulled through (maybe the Couvade theory is right!).

[wordgirl]

mrtl--Staying home with a sick toddler in Winter can drive anyone out of her/his tree. Cut yourself some slack. You are a great blogger! Everyone reaches low tide at some point. It just means that you've had a lot of output and not enough opportunity for input.You need input. A great movie. A good book. Lunch with friends (and no kids). The actor Jack Nicholson calls it, "filling the tub". You just need to find something that gives you perspective or that interests you. Or maybe you need a rest. We just finished with Christmas. You're supposed to be a bit out of it.

[wordgirl]

...and your man is "one stop shopping". He's definitely a keeper.

[suburban misfit]

So what did your amazing husband bring you back from Taco Bell (I'm hungry, can you tell)?

[Adrienne]

I feel similar. My most recent two posts were done simply because I didn't want people to forget about me. I have traveled 2 days in the car, celebrated a major holiday, and done other interesting and sometimes silly things, yet I have no desire to write about them. It'll pass, I'm sure.

[mrtl]

william - Thank you dear!
Kelli - Very good idea. I shall get out today and get some. (I'd consider eating the last piece of the Kalki/Cat peanut butter wonder pie, but that's not an excuse to get out.)
jana - Sweetie! I think I just need to get out.
pea - It seems as though I had better luck shopping for everyone not on my list than on!
Hänni - I didn't even realize what I was doing in the title. See here. You and Kelli are onto something. It's only Wednesday, but I will have pie today and see if it helps. My findings will be reported later.
Nina - Hugs back! Thank you!
Andrea - Genius! I got one of those light thingies for my birthday (October), but never got it set up. I'll try to do that today, too.
wordgirl - The journey to self-fulfillment begins with pie. :)
misfit - A double-decker taco. A burrito supreme was also requested, but they messed up the order. (All for the best, though. I wasn't hungry enough for it and would have gotten sick from inevitably choking it down. Taco Bell doesn't get wasted in this house.)
Adrienne - Make sure to make a list!

[Von Krankipantzen]

Poor Bug. Poor you. I don't know if it is a post holiday thing but I have a serious case of The Mehs too.

[mrtl]

Kranki - It may very well be. :(